Deja Vu! The rise and rise of the detractor – 34
Wednesday, 4 May 2011
A message from Moscow (2)
Thus it is not surprising that two new 12 step type fellowships have been established at Burrado in the Southern Highlands; ie- MDA (Malicious Dogs Anonymous) and CDA (Cross Dressers Anonymous).
We at KGB HQ already know that such Highland locals as “Welshie”, “Socrates”, “Shalwyn”, “Benji” and “Joe Blake” are attending MDA and CDA meetings.
Your instructions are simple, comrade. Join and infiltrate these two 12 step fellowships. We hope later to be able to compromise and thus neutralize certain deviant Highlanders, who in their corrupted depravity can at times have no remorse for persecuting and defaming honest proletariats in the Southern Highlands.
That is all for now, comrade. Continue with your duties at once.
Yuri Andropov (KGB General, Moscow)”
Posted by Paul C at 8:19 AM
2 comments:
- Anonymous said…
- To Paul C and Guy Burgess,I am writing this to inform you that me and several Bowral friends and associates have paid a Bowral legal firm $40,000 to act on our behalf as we report you two (and any other migrant in Bowral who has a funny accent that sounds vaguely eastern European) to the FBI, the CIA and ASIO.
You two and any of your associates will be no match for the fact that me and my friends are without scruples or morality and are as cunning as shit house rats.
So there!
Yours,
“Welshie” (A cross dresser and malicious dog in recovery, a person with a dual diagnosis, and a proud member of Bowral and Burrado MDA and CDA)
- 4 May 2011 10:37 AM
- Anonymous said…
- “Yahweh is the God of my salvation,I trust in him, and have no fear,
I sing of the joy that his love brings to me,
and I draw deeply from the springs of his great kindness.”
Take care, Paul.
Ben (A Jew in NY, who is now following your blog).
Shalom.
- 4 May 2011 10:41 AM
- “Yahweh is the God of my salvation,
I trust in him, and have no fear,
I sing of the joy that his love brings to me,
and I draw deeply from the springs of his great kindness.”
Take care, Paul.
Ben (A Jew in NY, who is now following your blog).
Shalom.
4 May 2011 10:41 AM
Anonymous said…- Even if one or some at Bowral Mental Health over the years may have done the wrong thing by you (as you perceive things), how do you feel about others who work there now who do a good job and have never wronged you?
4 May 2011 7:02 PM
- Paul C said…
- Over the past 30 years I have lived in a number of other places apart from the Southern Highlands and I have never (with mental health services in these different places) come close to having the same problems and difficulties as I have had with Bowral Mental Health.
I don’t deny there are some good, or at least OK, people now working at Bowral Mental health. Are you asking how I feel about those people as I go on the offensive against BMH on this blog?
They are collateral damage in a war which was started by some of their colleagues and some others who used to work there. I did not start this war but I intend to try very hard to win it.
They are not to blame for everything. It is not BMH’s fault that I have an episodic mental illness and that I can abuse alcohol and I have of course made some mistakes over the years that are not their fault etc. But because of my illness and because I’ve made some mistakes I have paid the price by the following: shock treatment as a teenager, I’ve been an inmate at 3 different maximum security jails, I have been forced to take medication which worsens my diabetes, etc and a lot more.
People who used to work at Bowral Mental Health and a few who still work there now have without doubt made some serious mistakes and blunders. What have they paid for this? A client’s blog which is critical of them from time to time (which is probably either ignored or occasionally laughed at by any mental health clinician with any sanity and maturity.) Get real! Compare that to what I’ve been through. Would they ever trade places with me? Then there was one front page article in a local paper that was critical of Bowral Mental Health. That article came and went. How many in Bowral would even remember that article now? There was a SSWAHS investigation which only resulted in one Bowral Mental Health psych nurse getting the sack. Finally, the HCCC must have decided there was something in my claims re mis-diagnosis of personality disorder by clinicians at BMH and its consequences because the HCCC directed SSWAHS to negotiate this matter with me and in the end (finally!!) I received a letter from a SSWAHS boss that BMH has to treat me for bipolar schizoaffective disorder and alcohol abuse but NOT a personality disorder (how I had to FIGHT to get this letter!).
I do believe Bowral Mental Health has had and still has a problem with over diagnosing and mis-diagnosing people with a personality disorder. If it was only me (a nut, a drunk and a crim) who thought this then they would laugh at me for a bit and then mainly ignore me etc, but BMH knows, and I know, that my allegations and claims about their service are also believed by others.
4 May 2011 8:33 PM
Deja Vu! The rise and rise of the detractor – 33
Tuesday, 3 May 2011
A message to Moscow
“Greetings comrade colonel,
I have acted as instructed. I have presented myself at Bowral Mental Health as a proletariat with a severe mental illness. I provided the 3 psych reports written by Sydney psychiatrists (who are Communist Party members). These reports state that I have suffered from severe bipolar disorder for more than 20 years. I saw a so-called “clinician”, a typical Bowral mental health worker, who is not even qualified to give a diagnosis and who at times can have more instability than the people they are paid to care for. Anyway, to get to the point, comrade Colonel, my initial experience with Bowral Mental Health was the same as our comrade agent Pavel K (aka Paul C),ie- After only 5 minutes with a 3 year trained psych nurse with a worse hangover than me, this total joke of a “clinician” totally disputed reports written by three 12 year trained respected doctors/psychiatrists and told me I was only a drunk with some kind of personality disorder, thus there was probably not much BMH could do for me; it took him 5 (5!) minutes with me, and stinking with alcohol on his breath and without the qualifications to diagnose mental instability in a dog or a cat, to provide that mis-diagnosis of personality disorder, which Bowral Mental Health is famous for!
On another matter, comrade colonel, I can report that the Bowral Mental Health psych nurse (Mr Oh Kneel; aka “Welshie” aka “Shalwyn”), who was sacked by SSWAHS (Sydney Area Health) because of his abuse and persecution of mentally ill clients who annoyed him, is still playing his “games”. This sacked, mentally unstable, renegade, corrupted by capitalism, male psych nurse, who exists as a real clinician only in his delusions, continues his written abuse of mentally ill proletariats and he continues with his bizarre, paranoid and defamatory allegations against certain doctors and real clinicians in both the Southern Highlands and Sydney. The poor, sad fool probably thinks that by doing this and presenting to others his totally distorted and almost delusional views on the circumstances around him being sacked by SSWAHS (Area Health), he can somehow salvage something of his reputation as a “clinician” and a person who does not have an undiagnosed mental/personality disorder.
That is all for now, comrade colonel. I will take no further action re Bowral Mental Health until I hear back from KGB headquarters, Moscow.
Yours,
Guy Burgess.”
8 comments:
- Paul C said…
- A big thanks again to an official at the Israeli consulate, who has sent me several emails with new suggestions for humour to confront and challenge and reveal past and present truths about Mr Oh Kneel, the sacked Bowral psych nurse and Bowral Mental Health.
Perhaps someone got sick and tired of the persecution of a fellow Jew, who happens to suffer from a mental illness and alcoholism.
- 3 May 2011 9:50 PM
- Anonymous said…
- Ever heard those words of the song that goes
“They say the greatest cowards can hurt the most ferociouly!” ?
- 3 May 2011 10:00 PM
- Anonymous said…
- Mr Oh Kneel can be so grandiose in his thinking and is such a litigious loose cannon etc that he will probably waste big dollars on solicitors to try to take legal action against the Israeli consulate! LOL!!
- 3 May 2011 10:10 PM
- Paul C said…
- Dear anon (1),
By “coward” are you referring to”
-Mr K Oh Kneel
-me
-or both of us ??Why not answer me and reply by email, which I can then hand over to my solicitor and Area Health in Sydney, who are responsible for the countless blunders and mistakes that have been made by Bowral Mental Health.
Then, like in 2009, it will turn out that the email address you use to write to me is the same one that you use on websites to contact potential casual sex partners and you will again thus be identified, OK?
Thanks for dropping by, dear anon.
- 3 May 2011 10:36 PM
- Paul C said…
- Anon (2),
Thank you for your comments re possible legal action by Oh Kneel against an Israeli embassy or consulate; I am not sure about that but one thing I do know is that once one has had any dealings with Oh Kneel one soon realizes bloody anything is possible.
- 3 May 2011 10:40 PM
- Anonymous said…
- Your a bloody genius, mate!
- 4 May 2011 12:27 AM
- Kev said…
- Nobody is a genius. Some people just have genies. And even those people misplace their genies, or their genies leave them for a person with a more attractively bent nose or clipped wings.
Stay even keeled Paulovsky, and stay off the potato juice in Leningrad.
- 4 May 2011 6:56 AM
- Paul C said…
- Your last comments worry me, comrade Kev.
Were YOU, perhaps, under the influence of vodka “potato juice” when you wrote that last comment?
If so (and I note you wrote at c.7.00am!) I have concerns for you, dear comrade.
Also, I remind you that I am KGB major while you are only a military intelligence captain. I have the power to write to Moscow advising that you could need a one week break from your intelligence duties so as to be placed in a KGB clinic where you will have to be alcohol free and where you can be counselled re the proper respect that must be shown at all times to superiors in the intelligence services of our glorious Soviet motherland.
This is, at this stage, just a friendly reminder, comrade. If you are passing through the Southern Urals this weekend we may meet up; I always look forward to that.
- 4 May 2011 8:14 AM
Deja Vu! The rise and rise of the detractor – 33
Sunday, 1 May 2011
Who said this?
“humour can sometimes be born from a great pain”
I think I have the quote right.
Oh well, back to google………..
0 comments:
Deja Vu! The rise and rise of the detractor – 32
Sunday, 1 May 2011
CDA and MDA
The main part of the article was that meetings of CDA (cross dressers anonymous) and MDA (malicious dogs anonymous) will be held at J Edgar’s and Clive’s mini mansion at Buradoo.
Some local highlanders have kept their anonymity, but their stories appeared in this article; “Welshie”, “Benji”, “Joe Blake”, “Shalwyn” and “Socrates”; these highlanders talked about their various pathological conditions and their hopes that, by attending CDA and MDA 12 step meetings they might find or achieve some peace and sanity in their lives.
It was so very interesting that I was almost late in meeting my friend from Sydney. Things with my Sydney friend went well. I went home and was a little generous with $$ to my family. I explained my extra $$$ by a win on the horses.
9 comments:
- Anonymous said…
- I know none of you humans is perfect but, Paul, you are getting VERY close to doing exactly what I told you not to do.So go no further in the direction you are again starting to go in, in this post.
If you need more psych pills to hear me more clearly then take them.
Now take care and good luck when you see your solicitor again tomorrow.
God.
- 1 May 2011 8:10 PM
- Paul C said…
- Sorry God.The next time I go to confession I will confess:
“……it has been about 3 years since my last confession……….I have missed mass on Sunday 138 times, I have wanked 435 times and I have had some fun with a Bowral mental health clinician 47 times……….for these and all my sins I am sorry…..etc”
Will that wipe my slate clean, God?
Also, God, I think you should know that a real clinician has increased my medication for a second time in 1 week because he believes that now I am to a degree at least mildly manic, which is only being controlled by medication,
So does that get me off a bit?
The last time I saw this psychiatrist/clinician I said to him “Just imagine if right now I stopped meds and/or got back on the drink and/or drugs!”
He replied “Without doubt you would be in a hospital.”
So God, can you forgive me this lapse and I’ll try again?
BTW- I am not as manic as in the past. There are about a dozen ways of manic thinking and acting I am not doing at the moment (yet). For example, when manic I often renounce my Catholicism and embrace Judaism on account of Jewish blood I have inherited from my mother……
yet I am not sleeping well; I am spending more money; I am making lots of phone calls; I have lost 6kg in weight very quickly; at times I can start talking or writing/typing etc and I just don’t shut up; finally it just feels like my brain/mind is revved up and so on…….
So, how many Hail Marys?
- 1 May 2011 11:01 PM
- Paul C said…
- I’d like in this comment to thank the Israeli consulates and embassies in Washington, London and Canberra, who have sent me some emails with a few suggestions re humour/jokes to confront my enemies (both real and imagined) in the Southern Highlands.Thank you and shalom (sp?)
- 1 May 2011 11:30 PM
- Anonymous said…
- The words below are meant to be sung with music:”Well I can turn and walk away or I can fire my gun,
I’m staring at the sky, I’m staring at the sun,
And the terror I choose it amounts to the same,
absolutely nothing,
but I’m alive,
and you’re dead!
I am a Jew boy,
killing for money!” - 2 May 2011 12:46 AM
- Anonymous said…
- “Yesterday I got so scared I shivered like a child,
yesterday away from you I hurt someone deep inside,
So go on go on and walk away
go on go on your choice is made
go on go on and disappear
go on go on away from hereAnd I know I was wrong
but I said it was true
that it couldn’t be me and be her
in between without you.Without you.”
- 2 May 2011 1:00 AM
- Anonymous said…
- Little did the people who attended the last MDA (Malicious Dogs Anonymous) meeting at Burrado know that the evil, spiteful old queen, J Edgar Hoover, had secretly recorded their meeting. I have obtained a tape recording of this recent Malicious Dogs Anonymous (MDA) meeting and it has been made into a transcript which will widely circulated in the Southern Highlands.What follows below is a part of when a Highlander by the name of Welshie shared at a MDA meeting:
“Hello friends, my name is Welshie and I am a malicious dog, and I am very new in malicious dog recovery; also I have a “dual diagnosis” as I am also a member of Cross Dressers Anonymous (CDA)…….I have to attend 200 MDA and CDA meetings as part of a 2 year good behaviour bond for extreme malicious dog behaviour. It is a section 12 bond and there are other conditions, which if I break I could go to jail …..(sobs, cries etc) oh! look where malicious dog actions have taken me, I call on the “higher power” of all malicious dogs and cross dressers to help me do what I can’t do for myself! ………..despite 30mg of Zyprexa and 800mg of Seroquel daily and three times a week psychotherapy, a Bowral psychiatrist could still not convince me or bring me back to reality to see that to anonymously abuse and persecute a person who was ill with a mental illness was in fact malicious dog behaviour………(sobs!) Oh what will my rock bottom be in malicious dog behaviour?! This 12 step fellowship for malicious dogs is my last hope! Please fellow malicious dogs in recovery, please! can you help me!!……..”
- 2 May 2011 1:40 AM
- Paul C said…
- “I’ve had relations, with girls from many nations,
I’ve made passes, at women of all classes,
And even when they’re gay,
I don’t turn them away,
And if you stick around,
I’m sure that we can find some common ground,Confidentiality, means a lot to my lawyer and me,
Sexuality, your laws do not apply to me.A nuclear submarine sinks off the coast of Sweden,
Headlines give me head aches if I read them.I had an uncle who once played for red star Belgrade,
He said some things are better off left unspoken
But Paulie prefers it all out in the open……” - 2 May 2011 2:11 AM
- Anonymous said…
- So who is talking to you now?
God or Satan? - 2 May 2011 2:26 AM
- Paul C said…
- Neither.With a combination of extra meds and a little reflection I can see God is probably too busy with a billion and 1 other matters.
And Satan and his best demons are probably too busy in places like Iraq and Afghanistan to worry about my very minor squabbles.
I just had a break from the computer and reread some parts of “The Medieval World” by Friedrich Heer; a book I borrowed from the Fisher Library at Sydney Uni back in 1982 and never returned.
Reading parts of that, made me think that God has probably delegated matters to my guardian angel who sits on one of my shoulders telling me things like: “If you can’t forgive, then at least try to forget and move on etc for your own sake and for others too” etc…..and on my other shoulder sits some low level, minor demon, who can still be persuasive as he whispers in my other ear “remember how much you were fucked over? remember the’games’ they played with you and what it felt like when you were not well? Well, now it is a good time for you to play some ‘games’ with them OK?……etc”
- 2 May 2011 6:22 AM
Deja Vu! The rise and rise of the detractor – 31
Sunday, 1 May 2011
a letter to NSW Health bosses
Dear Dr ……….or Mr …………..
I am writing to inform you that when the present mental health patient liason officer either quits or moves on you should immediately appoint me to that position. Also, when the community mental health advocate in the Southern Highlands either quits or moves on I also request you appoint me to that position. I am fully capable of doing both jobs simultaneously.
My qualifications and suitability for these positions are listed below-
1. I have started 3 uni degrees (Arts, theology, economics) which I did not fully complete but the courses I did complete I almost always passed with distinction or high distinction.
2. I am renowned in the Southern Highlands among all mental health workers, that regardless of how drunk, manic, stoned or psychotic I have been, I have NEVER resorted to any verbal abuse or sarcastic and mocking humour. In fact my pleasant, gentle communication skills have been noted and appreciated by one and all.
3. I am highly respected as a sober alcoholic; even though it was only in 2007 that I was barred for life from all 3 pubs in my town and to buy any alcohol I had to drive 15 minutes to another Highlands town when the medicinal need for a large bottle of Jim Beam or a large cask of wine hit me, which back then was almost every day.
4. I am 100% certain that my criminal record will not be held against me in applying for these government jobs. After all from 1993-2009 I have only been either arrested or convicted of the following: assault, malicious damage, drug possession, larceny, drunk and disorderly, drug possession (deem supply), intimidation and armed robbery.
So, Dr……….or Mr…………. I request an immediate reply to this email/letter and I also request that you place me no.1 on the list of people you will be looking at in the future to fill the above mentioned mental health positions. If this does not happen by 5pm tomorrow I will CC this to my solicitor. The same solicitor who assisted me in 2008-2009.
Remember 2008-2009? That was the time when there a faction in BMH (Bowral Mental Health) who instead of treating or helping me with bipolar schizoaffective disorder and alcoholism actually abused and persecuted me back into psychosis. Remember?
One article, in one country town newspaper that was critical of BMH. And look at what happened to me for talking to that journo! A faction of BMH who are paid to help people with mental problems actually did the opposite and acted in such a way that it was a big factor in a person with a serious illness becoming ill again. Remember?
Yours,
Paul…………….
PS
I enclose a letter from a respected psychiatrist that basically is asking SSWAHS: when will the persecution of Paul…………by person/people who are meant to be health professionals ever stop.
I enclose a letter from a Probation and Parole boss in Sydney that is basically just asking SSWAHS what they think of the fact that Paul has lived in many places around NSW and even inter-state, apart from the Southern Highlands, yet with the exception of one malicious damage in Newcastle his WHOLE criminal record is for offenses committed in the Southern Highlands. So, does this indicate that maybe I have not received the same sort of support and supervision etc from Bowral that I got in Sydney, Goulburn and Hobart etc.
1 comments:
- Anonymous said…
- If sobriety and seroquel can produce this, never drink again and take at least a small dose of seroquel for the rest of your life.
AJP.
- 1 May 2011 7:05 PM
Deja Vu! The rise and rise of the detractor – 30
Sunday, 1 May 2011
Secret message to comrades in our espionage cell
Comrade M, my female comrade, thanks for your kind email re my possible intelligence blunder in our currant struggle against machinations of Welshie (aka J Edgar Hoover; they have so much in common! cross dressing and total amoral cruelty and a legend at defaming good and innocent people).
Oh well, comrades, I look forward to your next emails.
Do not worry. Treating ones delusions with both medication AND humour seems to be working! (big LOL!). I am functioning quite well. I will cook T bones tonight for P and L and try to make a salad as well. Plus I will wash up. Get anything they need at the shops as well as look after young comrades Harry and Gus.
There will be no further contact, comrades, until after I check in with my double agent contact WWnirvana.
I doubt this post will get 20 hits in 12 hours like a few of the BMH ones did! (LOL!)
I hope you are celebrating May Day and having a great weekend.
Yours,
till the never ending of first of May,
Kim Philby, sorry, Paul.
Posted by Paul C at 1:55 PM
1 comments:
- Anonymous said…
- I want some seroquel NOW!
- 1 May 2011 2:30 PM
Deja Vu! The rise and rise of the detractor – 29
Sunday, 1 May 2011
Some good memories of bad places
After about a week all my psych reports must have hit the jail because I was moved to another pod; the “spinners” pod. This is not in any way protection. To get in this pod an inmate has to have a history of serious mental problems. There are people like murderers and that there but everyone is drugged up on psych pills; there is no alcohol but a bit of pot to make things a little easier; also, by then, I was on bipolar meds AND they gave me valium every night, and valium PRN in the day (which meant all I had to do was request valium if I felt stressed); also, my family, who were a fantastic support to me while I was in Silverwater, Long Bay and Goulburn jails put $$$ in my jail account so I had all the white ox tobacco I needed and could afford to buy up extras like chocolate.
One day in this “spinners” pod, a “pippa” (higher ranking) screw came into our pod and when he saw me he said “Paul, you are looking a lot better than when you first got here.” I said “Yes chief, things are OK here, it is better here than the wards at the old Kenmore psych hospital when I was younger. If I have to be in jail for a year or so, it would be OK if it was a pod like here.”
I don’t know if it was because of what I said, but the very next morning I was moved to Long Bay. Again, that was hard at first but after a short while I settled down. Again, valium and pot made it easier. No one hit me or bashed me, though I was threatened a few times; nothing really serious though; like I shared a cell with a serious Lebanese armed robber. Once he said something like “Ever raise your voice to me again and I’ll knock your head off.” After that we got on OK. Plus in his cell he had every single thing it is possible to have in jail; TV, rice cooker, kettle, radio etc; and he was generous in sharing his buy up food with me.
The real armed robbers in Long Bay, whether they were Lebs, Islanders or Aussies laughed their heads off when they read the paperwork of the details of my armed robbery. They called me “Mr Cogentin”. (I think Cogentin is a psych pill given to ease the side effects of other psych meds; I am not sure; I have never had it.)
Eventually, I had to go from Long Bay to Goulburn jail because that was where I was eventually having to face District Court. I will not write much about Goulburn; but it really deserves its reputation as either “the killing fields” or the worst jail in the state. Again, I was lucky. No one bashed or stabbed me but one bloke once pulled out a shiv and threatened to stab me but he didn’t go through with it.
The best screw I ever saw worked in Goulburn. He had an accent. I asked him where he was from and he said “Holland”. If all screws were as good as this bloke, for a lot of crims the rate of re-offending would drop by 50%.
When I got out of jail I had to spend 10 months on a very strict salvo rehab farm for “dual diagnosis” people; ie it was for people who were both nuts as well as drunks/addicts. I had to do 30 hours a week unpaid work therapy. At first I got the worst job; cleaning up pig shit in their piggery and feeding the pigs etc. Most blokes complained about being forced to work there. Most of them were at this rehab as an alternative to jail, but because I was out of jail, I was grateful to be there. Anyway, I finished up with a cushy job helping out in the reception office. I only have good memories about most of my time in this rehab farm. I met a couple of blokes there I am still friends with 6 years later.
(to be continued)
- Anonymous said…
- Great to see something new and not more stuff about bloody Bowral Mental Health.
- 1 May 2011 1:46 PM
Deja Vu! The rise and rise of the detractor – 28
Sunday, 1 May 2011
Listening to God and hearing voices
So I started to think and write about other psych nurses who in their ways were a lot worse than the poor local psych nurse bloke who was sacked.
This morning as I was sitting in the sun with my second coffee and smoking my third white ox smoke, God spoke to me again. He said if I have to go after and write about other total bastards in mental health care I have to think back over 30 years in and out of nut houses, alcohol and drug rehabs and jails and try to remember when a staff member of one of those places was good at their job and kind. Then when I think of a good memory of when a psych nurse, drug counsellor, cop or screw etc was good, decent, fair and kind, write a bit about that; to balance my justified fight for justice and fair treatment after me, some friends and some others have been treated like shit at places like Bowral Mental Health.
I am not drinking or smoking pot etc. In fact my psychiatrist has added Seroquel to my medication. I looked up this drug on the computer. It is used for a lot of things apart from schizophrenia and bipolar. For example, in the USA they give it to soldiers coming back from Iraq and Afghanistan who have things like PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder); it can be used for anxiety and insomnia and a lot of other things; in the USA inmates in prison will try to fake symptoms to be put on Seroquel. Also, in the USA it is sold as a street drug as “Suzi Q”. It seems all different and strange; I have never heard voices before like I am now until I have been put on this increased dose of Seroquel.
If anyone wonders how I can be taking these psych meds yet still hear the voice of God. Anyone who works in mental health could tell you that a person with a psych illness can be 100% compliant with meds yet still hear voices. It happens to thousands of ex psych patients in Australia. Psych medication never cures. At its best and if you are lucky it will just dampen down most of the symptoms most of the time, but sometimes it does not even do that for some people.
I am glad it was God who decided to talk to me and not Satan, the devil, or devils or the anti-Christ etc.
2 comments:
- Anonymous said…
- Paul what sorts of things should I say to a doctor or psych worker to get seroqual?
- 1 May 2011 12:23 PM
- Paul C said…
- Seroquel is a good drug. I just had an extra 100mg with my coffee and smoke outside.It is just about as good as valium or xanax in feeling less anxious and more relaxed.
When I was last drinking I would go up to pubs in Sydney where drugs get sold and I never heard or saw anyone selling seroquel like they can sell pills like valium etc and pot and so on; look at wiki and other places on the net where it says what happens in the USA, how it is sold on the streets and what street names it has. There are addicts in the USA who take it with speed or cocaine.
As far as I know in Oz the only way to get it fairly easily would be to have a diagnosis of schizophrenia or bad bipolar from a psychiatrist. ie- a proper shrink, not a GP doctor and not a psych nurse who suffers from the morbid delusion of being a “clinician” etc.
I have a friend who works on a ward in Sydney where he says they use it a lot; but from what I’ve seen, shrinks are more likely to try Zyprexa or Risperdal than Seroquel.
If you google “Seroquel” it is amazing how many things it can be used for apart from schizo or bipolar illnesses; like it is used (in the USA at least) for things like not sleeping and being very anxious, I think. And a dozen other problems.
- 1 May 2011 1:43 PM
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Sunday, 1 May 2011
I’ll try to be fair about BMH.
Since I got out of maximum security jail in 2003 and then after I had done the 12 months in nut houses and rehab farms before I could be allowed back in the community………well since then, 3 times a magistrate has decided to give me a CTO (Community Treatment Order) and there are conditions you have to keep but the main one is to front up at BMH every 14 days for your lovely injection of “chemical straight-jacket” (LOL!). This stuff they give you can make you put on heaps of weight and can also bring on or worsen diabetes among about 20 other beautiful possible side-effects AND it does not cure you; it just dampens down most of the symptoms hopefully most of the time, if you are lucky (LOL!)…………..but I digress.
During those 3 recent CTOs, BMH gave me one case manager, who always treated me well and was fair, honest and decent in all his dealings with me.
So I am not saying on this blog that everyone who does or who has ever worked at Bowral Mental Health is hopeless. There have been some good people who’ve worked there and still work there.
But as God in heaven knows, some real shockers have worked at the place and it has never been uncommon at BMH for some very ill and vulnerable people to be treated like shit.
- Anonymous said…
- Comrade!I thought I suggested you have a 2 day break from your duties. Even the hardest working KGB penetration agent needs a break as he struggles for the proletariat against evil institutions like the CIA, the FBI or BMH (Bowral Mental Health).
And it is May Day too, dear comrade!
Yours,
Yuri Andropov (Moscow)
- 1 May 2011 2:42 AM
- Anonymous said…
- Paul,Go a bit more easier on the people at BMH.OK. I admit some bad things might have happened there. But I don’t think it could be quite as bad a place as you have made out.
- 1 May 2011 3:02 AM
- Anonymous said…
- Paul forgets that when he was younger and when he was working at a computer at the Bureau of Statistics or with the Police in Sydney, some of these nurses were struggling to learn how to change bed pans. Some of these nurses started their careers when you could have the IQ of a boiled potato and still start a psych nursing career.AJP.
- 1 May 2011 3:12 AM
Deja Vu! The rise and rise of the detractor – 26
Saturday, 30 April 2011
the sad and unnecessary downfall of a male psych nurse
I started this blog in Jan 2007. From then till Oct 2008, I know that a lot of times there would have been only two people regularly reading my blog. Until Oct 2008, a few hundred people from anywhere around the world had at least read or glanced at one page but I knew that a lot of times I only had 2 loyal followers; they were one of my brothers and a woman friend from AA.
Who ever at BMH might have known about my blog, which was mostly about my struggles to quit alcoholic drinking, choose to either laugh at it or ignore it; with the exception of one male psych nurse.
Well, things changed in October 2008 when I wrote on this blog that I was going to talk to a local journalist who was preparing to write a front page newspaper story that would be very critical about Bowral Mental Health.
A lot of things happened after this, but I’ll try to be brief with a few facts about this whole sad business.
When this particular male psych nurse at BMH knew there was going to be a newspaper article critical of where he worked and that I (as well as quite a few others who he then didn’t know about) were talking to the journo he totally lost the plot and acted in bizarre, malicious and unprofessional ways that led to him being sacked in May 2009, after a long investigation.
The whole thing was so unnecessary. No one else at BMH went insane over one article in a country newspaper, but he did.
Now for the good thing I’d like to say about this Bowral psych nurse; until he went mad over the newspaper article, he was so far from being any where near as bad as some of the lazy and uncaring mental health workers that have worked at BMH over the last 20 years. He was in no way lazy and no where near as uncaring as others.
And also, I’ll say another good thing about the poor bloke. Until the newspaper thing happened, I had NEVER once heard him say anything either nasty, cruel or inappropriate to me or any other client as some (but not all) of his other colleagues had done quite often over many years.
There was this real class act male psych nurse employed at Bowral in the 1990s who has said things to me when I was suffering depression like “You know Paul, when your parents die, you’ll probably be at Matthew Talbot, mate!” (“the Talbot” is the dirtiest, roughest homeless mens shelter in Sydney). Or when I was feeling paranoid, he could say: “you know if it wasn’t for my job I’d punch your lights out!”. One more example, I could be at Bowral Mental Health waiting to see the doctor, and this useless and cruel clown could say to me “G’day Mummy’s boy! You here for your Freudian analysis? What is it today? Daddy didn’t take you to the zoo?”
In 48 years I’ve never had a cop talk to me like that, even when I was drunk and provocative. With this male psych nurse I was sober and not even provoking the stupid goose. Also, in 3 different maximum security jails I never once had a screw ever talk to me any where near as bad as that dog male nurse.
And of course as he spoke to me like that, he could talk like that to others he didn’t like, even if they were fragile and vulnerable because of their illness.
So when I think about it, I know that until the newspaper thing happened, the poor male psych nurse who they sacked was light years better than others they had employed. To repeat, not once in the years leading up to Oct 2008 had I seen this now poor sacked nurse act as bad as some of the other dogs that have worked in mental health in Bowral.
If only he had of left me alone, and just let the newspaper thing come and go, like all the others did, he’d still have his job! And he was in many ways better at his job than others when you can think of the other jokes BMH has employed over the years-
There is a sort of second section of BMH up near the hospital. I was once sober, polite and stable on medication and there were 3 or 4 other clients and me having coffee and chatting in the smoking section and the Anglican chaplain was there as well. What happened was that there was a young woman who was studying at uni to be a doctor and she was doing some prac work in Bowral. A BMH staff member and this young woman med student came over to us clients. The BMH staff member introduced this young woman to everyone but me. So the Anglican chaplain said “You forgot to introduce Paul!” The BMH staff member said “No. I did not forget. Now, do you REALLY expect me to introduce something like HER to someone like HIM?”
This and another 100 examples I can give of how cruel, petty, nasty and unprofessional some Bowral psych nurses can be just shows how tragic it was that the one who ended up getting sacked was light years better than the worst of the worst at BMH.
I said that to a cop I know in Sydney. Until the newspaper thing happened, the one who ended up getting sacked would never have been close to the top 3 worst ones who in a just and fair world would have been sacked years ago.
6 comments:
- Paul C said…
- See Kev!
I took the dogs for a long walk and thought about things.
I did what I have done a few times (as AA suggests), believe it or not, and I said a quick prayer for Oh Kneel.
It probably was not a great prayer but I just prayed that he does not have to suffer too much, or any more than he deserves etc….
Then I tried to force myself to think of other things. And I ended up thinking of others who have worked at Bowral Mental Health who in their ways were a lot worse than him.
So April finishes tonight.
In May I’ll stop thinking and writing about Oh Kneel and I might blog about my other memories of my dealings with BMH on and off since 1994.
What do you think?
It has not been fair to Oh Kneel to focus on him and let others off the hook who have “worked” at BMH over the years and who were nasty, unprofessional, lazy, uncaring and occasionally cruel and even sadistic.
- 1 May 2011 12:21 AM
- Anonymous said…
- Can you give one or two more examples of things that happened at this mental health centre?
- 1 May 2011 12:28 AM
- Paul C said…
- There are SO many to choose from. But I’ll give you one petty and silly one and one serious one.
Quite recently I was on a 6 months CTO, which means among other things that a magistrate said I had to go to Bowral Mental Health every 14 days for an injection of anti-psychotic in the bum or the cops could take me back to a nut house for another holiday there.
One day the nurse I saw at BMH who had to inject me; when there was no one else there to hear her nasty stupidity said to me: “Paul in my opinion you are nothing but an old drunk, who has been around and in the system a long time, and you now know how to use and manipulate the system” etc. This was really nothing compared to other stuff so I just laughed that one off. BTW- That nurse resigned at the time of the SSWAHS investigation. A coincidence?
I will be honest and say that while on the CTO which a magistrate extended to 12 months, there were some other psych nurses at BMH who really did treat me with a little respect. They know who they are and I was and am grateful.
This one coming up is a bit more serious.
In early 2007, I commit a small crime while mentally ill. I get bail. I commit another small crime. So I have broken bail conditions. Cops take me to Bowral hospital. A BMH psych nurse comes into the room where I am hand-cuffed with 2 cops watching me. He just stares at me for no more than 5 seconds. There is NO talking between us. This “clinician” then leaves and writes up a report saying I received a proper psych evaluation and in his opinion I am in no way mentally ill or disordered or need any treatment. After that the cops have no choice but to hand me over to Corrective Services in Sydney instead of me getting any psych treatment or any health treatment, which a bit later a real clinician in Sydney decided I definitely needed.
Memories!LOL!
What is it about Bowral that has attracted so many useless mental health workers. In Goulburn, Sydney and Hobart I never had one tenth of the triubles I’ve had at Bowral.
And some people could wonder why it wasn’t almost inevitable a newspaper article was going to be written about them and Sydney Area Health had to investigate the joke of a place.
- 1 May 2011 1:24 AM
- Anonymous said…
- Dear Paul,
I told you to leave Mr Oh Kneel alone for a while.
I did NOT tell you to leave him alone AND then go and attack other mental health workers.
OK?
Yours,
God.
- 1 May 2011 2:17 AM
- Paul C said…
- Sorry God,
but I want you to know this is not all about revenge.
What I would really like is for at least some truths to be revealed about some really bad stuff that can and often does happen at BMH (Bowral Mental Health).
And for what purpose?
So a lot of very ill and vulnerable people can be treated in a fair, humane and decent way; as opposed to being treated like shit.
- 1 May 2011 2:55 AM
- Anonymous said…
- All right, I see your point, keep going. We’ll see how things go. But do NOT ever again use anyone’s name. OK?
And please continue to leave Mr Oh Kneel alone. There are enough total bastards out there for you to work on. I should know. I created them.
God.
- 1 May 2011 3:29 AM
How NOT to make friends and influence people! 